Oh how I loathe the TWW. Especially when AF date gets closer and closer it takes everything in me just to stay sane. AF is supposed to rear her ugly face on Sunday. I don't know why every month I keep doing this to myself, but I test almost a week before my AF and sigh when the results are a BFN! In an ideal world I would love to test tomorrow, and get a positive. How amazing of a Thanksgiving would that be, but I am holding out as I don't want to test that early and I only have one first response left in the package. OH if only trying to concieve would be EASY! I am so used to seeing the one line on a test, that I just assume thats what its going to be. Cannot wait until the day I see those two whopping lines!
On another note, I am getting eager for my first Dr's appt after the year mark! A ball full of emotions: excited, scared, eager, uneasy. I am feeling so many different things. My appt is scheduled for the 5th of December, and my Period Tracker (which usually varies from a day or two) says I am going to ovulate on the 7th. Hopefully the Dr can take a quick look and see if I will be ovulating. This week has been a tough one. 3 of my friends have delivered babies this week. I am excited for them, very excited! Especially since two of them both have PCOS and had to conceive using Clomid. I am also extremely jealous. I feel selfish for saying that, but its the damn truth. I see these first baby pictures, and mommy's holding their babies for the first time and I just pray that is me someday.
So hears to the TWW. Hoping that everyone who has to go thru it, will get their postive results come the end of the waiting game!
I grew very used to seeing just that white line. I felt the very same way, that I could never get a positive test. That's why I about flipped out when I got 2 lines on 4 tests a couple months ago. Keep the faith! It happens!
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